I think I have forgotten how to blog. Tonight I started typing a post and it came out all...wrong. I don't know. I'm really sorry I haven't been blogging much (Kaitlin;) ). My head has not been in it. Where has my head been? you might ask. It's been all on me. 

Ya, ya, I know that sounds vain. I'm sorry. What I mean is this: over the past few years I've done a lot of thinking about my life and what I want to do and who I am and all that stuff. I guess that comes with the territory when you're in your early 20's (and slowly approaching your mid-20's, eep!) I feel like all of that is finally beginning to come to a head. I feel like I'm holding my breath and the things I've been looking for are just around the corner. I don't know if that corner is in next week, or next year, but I do feel like I'm finally moving towards it. 

I'm getting to a point where I am learning how to take actual steps towards answering these questions for myself, where before I had no idea where to even start. I know I've mentioned my love of (obsession with?) goals and lists, so I've been doing a lot of that (haha). I've also been realizing that I need to let go of some things that I want to be interested in, but am not. For that reason, I'm going to be shutting the other blog I started. It was a fun experiment, and a variation of something I've always wanted to try. However, I realized (as I was dreading working on it) that I didn't really enjoy it at all. It was fun at first, but it had become a chore. So I'm shutting it down. Maybe I will still do some of the posts I was doing there, here, but we'll just see!

The way I live my life has really been on my mind lately.

I don't want to get to the end of my life and find I lived just the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well. -Diane Ackerman

That quote has really been bugging me lately. And even more, the life of Billy Hornsby, a pastor and great leader at my church. I watched his memorial service online the other night and bawled like a baby. He left such a great legacy. I really admire him and join with many others all over the nation (and the world!) in saying that he has touched my life. His legacy has left behind a challenge to live life fully and to live life well. 

When my life comes to a close, I want to look back and be happy with the what I've lived, instead of wishing that I had done more. I don't want to wish I had more time. I want to have something I could write memoirs about if I wanted to. And so the challenge begins now: what can I do to make sure that I am not wasting my life? How can I squeeze everything out of my short time here? That is what has been consuming my mind lately and that is my new focus.

What do you do to make sure you're living your life to the fullest?

A Garden

I've been obsessed with gardens lately. I blame this:

There were some FANTASTIC photos from March's issue of Martha Stewart Living (yes, I have a subscription) that were so inspiring!

 

 

The photos above are from the garden shown below (please excuse the below picture as I had to take a picture of it since our scanner is not working).

O this plan inspires me so much. Someday...

The two pictures here are from a community garden. What a great idea!

I got sick of feeling like I had to wait for a house to have a garden of my own so I made one on our back porch!

Tulips and Hyacinthe.

Herbs (basil, rosemary, oregano and mint)

Strawberries

 

 

Who says you have to wait to make your dreams come true? Don't wait.

Move

Thud thud thud thud. My feet pound the blue plastic that is the track at the gym. Four steps in, four steps out. It's the breathing Trey taught me and I try to focus on it. I make my legs lift up higher. I am my own coach, but I'm a softie. I used to push myself harder, but I pushed myself right out of the desire to run.

I used to care about numbers. I used to care about my speed, and my time. Now I don't care. I don't look at the clock. I just run and enjoy it. I don't know how fast I'm going. Probably not very fast, but if I keep enjoying it, then I'll keep running, and I'll get faster on my own without even knowing it.

Someone once told me I run like a duck. I've been self conscious about it for the better part of 10 years since.

Someone else once told me I smile when I run. I try to concentrate on that instead.

I'm lapping you for the second time, I say to the pink tank top in front of me (in my head of course). I always step it up a little when I'm passing someone. I tell myself it's just to get around them, but I'd be lying if there wasn't a bit of pride involved.

I've brought my ipod, but I left it in the locker. Some people can't run without listening to something, but sometimes I prefer it. Just as I prefer driving without listening to anything most times. It's my thinking time. Besides, the ear buds always fall out of my ears, and constantly pushing them back in is not why I'm here.

It feels so good to run. It's been awhile since I've been able to enjoy it and I'm so glad that I've got the fire to run back.

As I leave the gym, the wind is blowing and the breeze is warm. I smile and run down the stairs and to my car. I guess I just didn't get enough inside :) And for the first time, in a long time, I look forward to going back.

Bits

I feel as if I am in a constant struggle. A struggle...to find good workout music. Anyone know what I'm talking about? Can I get some suggestions up in here?

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Add this to my list of misconceptions as to what adult life would be like: I thought, as an adult, I wouldn't get my feelings hurt anymore. Was that naive? Because I still get my feelings hurt. Not often, but it happens. And when it does, it hurts more than I remembered that it could.

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I had a dream the other night that I was in a mental institution. Hullo, brain, what's that about?

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The End.

This V-day

Valentine's Day has always been "take it or leave it" for me.

This year we had quite a good one, though. On Sunday night after church (the 13th) I made Chinese Dumplings and Chocolate Molten Cake for Trey for a special Valentine's dinner. He LOVES dumplings so I secretly looked up a recipe and did my darnedest to make them special. I was so excited with the surprise of the whole thing. The cake was something I had seen in a magazine and decided to try. It came out even better than I could have hoped.

Mostly, though, I just enjoyed my time with Trey. I feel so blessed to have him in my life and I don't know what I'd do without him. I'm a lucky girl :)

Reunite

O my! What a weekend!

I'm sorry I've been absent for a few days. Sometimes, when I get out of my routine, I get flustered and then it takes me a few days to get straightened out again and resume my regular habits (i.e. blogging). (Does that make me sound like a child or what? Haha.)

Anyway, the reason my routine was interrupted was because of the 24/7 Reunion that took place this weekend!

If you don't know, I did two years of 24/7 back in 06-07 and 07-08. If you don't know anything about the program, click on the link above and you can learn all about it! Also, I'm gonna be honest and say I just really don't feel like going into it ;) They do a good job of explaining.

Anyway, it was really good to see everyone and, I must say, I had a BLAST. Even came away from the weekend with a scratchy vioce from all the talking and laughing. Can't remember the last time that happened.

Anyway, that's where I was. Here are some pics. Enjoy!

Us with Pastor Layne-the 24/7 director and someone really important to us (fun fact: he married us!)

Trey with his team (mostly): Imago Dei

Pastor Layne, me and some of the girls from my second year

Just some more second year peeps

Some people who showed up for ultimate frisbee in the morning

In January I...

Did{this}:

• Supported and celebrated with Trey as he got a new job!
• Started working out again!(and then stopped again)
• Redesigned my blog!
• Went to the Flying biscuit in Atlanta. Huge letdown.

• Cleaned the whole house!

Read:

• From Dead to Worse by Charlaine Harris (it's possible I read this in December, I can't remember) {=)}
  
• Dead and Gone by Charlaine Harris {=)}
  
• Dead in the Family by Charlaine Harris {=)}
• Brown Rabbit in the City by Natalie Russell {=)}
  
• Kiss by Ted Dekker & Erin Healy {=/}
  
• Dragon's Milk by Susan Fletcher (an old favorite) {=D}
  
• Flight of the Dragon Kyn by Susan Fletcher (another old favorite) {=)}
  
• Burn by Ted Dekker & Erin Healy {=)}

Made{to eat}:

• Potato and green Onion Soup--For the fast, and yes, I changed it up a bit, I do that... {=)}
• Spaghetti Squash {=/}
  
• Taco Soup *Without Meat*--a LOT of taco soup... {=D}
  

[{=)}= liked it {=D}= loved it {=/}=didn't love it, didn't hate it {=(}= didn't like it {>=(}= no no no!]



Listened To:

• Daniel Bashta
• Hillsong
• Various Disney music
• Taylor Swift
  

Created:

• Nothing as far as the way of crafts, but I did do some mending! Yay! Just too busy cleaning and reading for creative projects this month I guess...

My favorite color was:

• Probably gray
• ...or grapefruit pink

Liked:

• The Library
• 2 and Charles
• Getting Mail!
• This series of posts by Mighty Girl

Learned:

• A bit about html (yikes!)
• That you don't have to like everyone.

Took Some Pics {See?}:

Mission Statement

Today I am working on my mission statement. I know that might sound kind of strange, but I do have a reason. Let me explain:

I don't know if this is obvious or not (I think it is), but I like a lot of different things. One thing that I see as a sort of failure in myself is the way I get really excited about something and then abandon it when the excitement wears off. Some examples: couponing, crochet, crafts, ect.

I thought I had written about this before but I haven't been able to find the post so maybe I didn't. BUT...I've been trying to find some more solid direction for my life lately. I think that trying to dip my toes into so many things is contributing to my lack of that direction. If things are important to me, then I need to work on doing them consistently, if they are not important to me, I need to drop them.

"'I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord." Jeremiah 29:11

...and I'm pretty sure His plans for me don't involve me flailing around with no direction and no idea of who I am or what I'm supposed to be doing or what I even want to be doing.

So that's where my mission statement comes in. I'm going to be sitting down and deciding what's really important to me: my values. Then I'm going to figure out what it is I want to achieve, like, the big things: my goals.* Lastly I'm going to think about the things I really enjoy and am good at (don't you usually enjoy the things you're good at?):my interests. Hopefully at the end of all this I will be able to look at those lists and see a way that I can put them together so they are all flowing in the same direction. (i.e. what I'm doing is something I really enjoy that lines up with what's important to me and helps me achieve my goals). Make sense?

So that's my plan. I may update when I'm done if it doesn't end up being too personal.

What is your mission statement?



*These are not the goals I make on a regular basis (which I do, A LOT) but rather, goals about where I want to end up, goals about the person I would eventually like to be.

What a long weekend!

We went to Atlanta (as we try to do about once a month) to visit family. Got to see Trey's mom and stepdad as well as my sister-in-law and niece Lily:)

We went to Ikea like we almost always do when we go to the ATL:

It was fun to get away and spend some time with my in-laws. It's always hard to come back though because I get used to being with Trey all the time and then we have to separate at work. Haha. O well.

So now we're back and life is back to normal. I'm trying to get back in the groove. I've made a ton of little projects for myself to do this month so I'm trying to make sure they all get done. Since it's the annual 21 Days of Prayer and Fasting at our church, I haven't been watching any TV. It actually hasn't been that hard for me but I thought it would so I took steps to make sure I kept busy! Haha. So I decided to make January my new "Spring Cleaning" month. I've been going through all the rooms in our apartment and cleaning everything to death. I've also been trying to decorate the place a little bit so that's been lumped in with the spring cleaning. Plus I've got this huge running list of projects for myself so I've been working on some of that too. So I have been pretty busy and it's been really good.

Trey is really enjoying his new job which makes me really happy. When you're married, it's just hard to be completely happy if your partner is not.

Alright, all for now.

10 Things I'm Looking Forward to in 2011

I just saw the list I made last year of "what I'm looing foward to in 2010."

Let us just see how that turned out shall we?

My 2010 List:

10--Some kind of direction as to what we are supposed to be doing now (eh not exactly)
9--A pregnancy? (lemme check...o. Nope.)
8--Checking things off my life list (Well I did this one. Yay!)
7--Getting a more organized life (I would say my life is more or less the same amount of organized as before)
6--Making new friends (eh...)
5--Meeting my little niece, Lily, in March! (well this was going to happen no matter what I did. And boy am I glad it did)
4--Taking control of my health (hahahahahahahahahahaha)
3--Taking a more relaxing view of life (replace "relaxing" with "lazy" and I might have done this)
2--Our first year anniversary! (we made it!;))
1--Seeing my family again (That I did)

And here we see how life just doesn't work out like you plan it! But still, I think I'll do the same thing for 2011. So, without further adu:

Top 10 Things I'm looking Forward to in 2011

10--Finally (please God!) being settled into our jobs and life
9--a (possible) pregnancy? (again)
8--Our second anniversary!
7--A summer not in North Caroliana
6--getting a tan
5--Taking Trey on a trip
4--this year being SO MUCH BETTER than 2010.
3--Lily's first birthday!
2--reading a lot
1--loving my body

This was actually hard to make. I dont' know if I have nothing to look forward to or if I'm just ready to take this year as it comes, without expectations :)

Well I guess I can say it now: Trey got a new job! He is working at Highlands (our church.) He started yesterday. It has really just been a huge answer to prayer for us as his old job, while good in a lot of ways, just wasn't really working for us. This new job is going to require an adjustment for us but we are both really exctied at this new chapter and the possibilities that it will open up for us.

As for me, there really isn't much new to tell. I've been workinng at the cafe as usual. My favorite thing about working at the cafe is getting to interact with all the staff members at Highlands. They are a great group of people and I love that I get to see and talk to so many people every day. Which is kinda weird since I wouldn't exactly call myself a "people person." Plus, Trey works here now so...BONUS!

We are going to Altanta next weekend. I may be more excited that necessary but I'm excited, still. I feel like Atlanta is my home away from home and everytime we leave, well, I feel like I'm leaving home. It's weird.

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do with this blog. Maybe it's because of all the editing I've done to the blog itself, I don't know. But I know I want to get better at posting regurlarly and I know I want to add some kind of consistiancy and order to my little corner of the internet. I don't know what all that entails yet but I'll let you know when I do!

Alrighty, signing off now. I'll be back, hopefully SOON!

Tape

Tonight I drove by, what looked like, tape pulled out of a video tape strewn along the side of the road. It glittered in the streetlight and it caught me off guard. For some reason that sparkle of tape reminded me of the sparkle of snow on the side of the road. And that memory made me homesick. It made me long for the snow in the moonlight and the crisp air of a Colorado winter. For the blue skies and your breath catching in your throat. But more than anything it made me miss my family.

I've never been one to be really homesick, but the older I get, the better my relationship with my family gets and the more I miss them.

The holiday season is approaching like a freight train and I wish I could see them. I love my in-laws to death and I am so blessed to get to live close to them. But sometimes I wonder if I underestimated the cost of living so far from my parents.

If you live close to all of your family, know how blessed you are. I'm jealous of you.

Can you believe it's almost November? Where did this year go?! It seems like hardly any time at all since I was making my grand plans for 2010, and now I'm gearing up for 2011.

I'm really thinking *this* year is gonna be an awesome year. 2010 was hard, it was painful. I'm just really looking forward to picking myself up, dustin' off and making some progress this year. I'm looking forward to moving forward instead of sliding backwards and grasping at straws, like this year felt a lot of the time.

But if I've learned anything this past year, it's to let life do what it does. I can make all the plans I want and still at this time next year, life is going to look nothing like I imagine. That's just the way of it.

"Live like you're going to die tomorrow, plan like you're going to live forever."

Darn it, darn it all to heck

I am AGGRAVATED!

I feel like LAUREN SMASH. Such a weird feeling. I feel like if someone looked at me wrong right now I might scream. Not necessarily *at* them but just a general, guttural scream of frustration.

I am in an incredible *mood* tonight. I know what is setting me off, I just don't know why it's effecting me so deeply.

I've been going through these up and down swings of, I don't know, self-esteem maybe? I kind of feel used, which is something I've never really felt before. And I'm longing for something *real*.

This past weekend I worked a women's conference at the church and I got to attend most of the sessions. And ya know, it was really good and the main part I got out of it was something I needed to hear: you could have been born at any time, yet God chose for you to be born when and where you are. And all this made me feel awesome, like "I have a purpose!" and then I was all, "what the heck is my purpose?!"

It's something I had already been struggling with lately since I turned 23. I know I posted about it before but I really just thought my life would be different now. Like, MORE, I guess. I thought I would be important and I don't feel important. I thought I would be special and smart and I don't feel those things either.

I feel lost and like I'm still looking for "me." And I'm upset because I have (or I had) higher standards for myself and my standards say it's unacceptable for me to still not know who I am. Or what I want. Or what I even like.

And I feel like I'm making strides. And I'm trying to take steps in the right direction. Not just "step"-steps but actual meaningful and thought-out steps. And yet I still feel like for every step I take forward, I have to take two steps back for damage control.

So I'm frustrated. And I'm angry at the world. Like a child, I'm angry at the world for not giving me what I want. For not being what I expected. And I'm angry at myself for being childishly angry at the world. And I'm angry at myself for not pushing myself and making this life what I wanted it to be. I'm just so ANGRY.

And I'm lonely. And I'm sad. And I'm looking for someone to talk to and no one is there.

And I'll probably feel better in the morning. And foolish for posting this.

Stuck

I feel trapped.

I feel like there is some opportunity that I am missing out on. My internal environment is all in turmoil right now. I am just so FRUSTRATED and not completely sure why.

I feel like a bomb about to go off.

I guess that, for me, moving has always been the start of a NEW adventure. I've never moved back to anywhere before. And as much as I wanted to move back to Birmingham and I missed Birminham and I love Birmingham, it's like it goes against my nature to move back to Birmingham. Where is my NEW adventure? Can I find it in a place I've been already? It doesn't help that I have also, basically, lived here for four years now and my internal-time-clock is saying "it's time to move!" Old habits die hard.

You know, I think I watch too much TV and too many movies. Because my life never seems exciting enough. And lets be real, who's life is as exciting as TV? Even reality shows aren't reality. (And who wants the reality show brand of "exciting" anyway? ew.)

I want grand gestures! and great adventures! and to never work! Haha.

I hate Tuesdays.

Expectations

Can I just say, 2010 did NOT exactly go according to plan. Ya ya, I know, 2010 is not over yet. But hey, I'm just gonna go out on a limb here and say that my expectations for an entire year are not going to come to frutation in the next three months.

Last winter I thought 2010 was going to be MY YEAR! It was going to be the best YEAR 4EVER YAY! Not to say that it was *all* bad, but ya...it was pretty rough.

I try not to look at things as failures. Instead, I try to see things as learning experiences and times of growth. That being said, I hope I grew a TON this year. Haha.

I was looking back at some of my old blog posts and thinking about all that I was going through at the time and all the things I was hoping to get out of this year. And you know what? Most of what I wanted to get accomplished did not get accomplished. And the dreams I had got put on hold and this year was a lot of heartache and pain. But I'm still glad I'm not where I was last year. I guess I'd say I'd rather be here than there. So I'd call that progress. And hey! there's always next year!

Come on 2011!

Life...

Has been....different than I expected. You know that saying "when it rains, it pours"? Of course you do. And it's so true.

I feel like we've been swimming upstream to get to where we need to be. Like we are trying to catch up in a race, and everyone else got a headstart.

It's so frustrating and I lie awake at night and worry. I am a worrier, I know it. And then I berate myself because I know that worrying is not of God. And it's like this endless cycle of feeling bad and stressed out.

I KNOW that this is not forever. I know I wont FEEL like this forever and I know that life wont BE like this forever. So I'm holding on to that. And I'm trying not to think about the job I'm going to have to get or the bills we are going to have to pay or the new cars that we both need. I'm trying not to think about all the things that keep coming up and coming up and coming up, but that's exactly the nature of those things isn't it? They keep coming up and they wont let me forget about them.

And I find myself trying to organize every tiny detail of my life, because that's how I cope. Somehow my brain tells me that if I organize, then I can control. And we all know, that's not true. And really, the frantic list making and scheduling, besides helping me remember everything I would most likely forget, only proves to make me worry and stress more. But I can't stop, because like I said, I would forget everything I need to remember.

I'm just so sick of being stressed out. I want it to end. But this is life.

Update

Not much has been going on down here in Thomason-land. I kind of feel like everything is just holding its breath until we actually HAVE INTERNS. Ya, that will make a big difference.

The homesickness has subsided, a bit. BUT, we're trying to plan a trip to visit family and I'm not sure if that will make things better or worse. Not that I don't want to go, I just don't know how I'll feel when I get back.

The baby bug has bit me a little again. I'm not really saying much to Trey about it or even doing anything at all. I know the timing isn't great so I'm just waiting. But as soon as he says it's time...I'm there!

The time seems to be going by fast and slow at the same time. Sometimes we get to the weekend and it seems like time has flown so fast.

I have been spending my days in Trey's office, on my computer, just working on stuff for 24/7. I have my own cubical with a computer and everything but I have spent next to no time in there. I'm sure I will move in there eventually but, for now, it is just easier to stay with Trey. And I HAVE been getting a lot of work done so I don't feel too bad about it:).

We love our townhouse. Well, everything but the screaming dryer and the lack of garbage disposal. Still, perspective? we're doing ok. The original plan was to only be in this house for a few months and then look for a new place, as the owner is trying to sell it. BUT, last week she said we could stay there as long as we like. So we still might be moving sometime but at least there is no pressure for a while.

I can't think of much else. That's our short update for now!

Scrambled

It's been a bit of a rough week for me. I'm not sure if I HAVE too much going on, or if I'm making too much for myself to do. Or both. Or neither.

For example: I just got done organizing my craft bookmarks (pretty sure I had like...a thousand). It took forever and it was something I felt like I needed to do. And maybe I did. Or maybe it is just something stupid that I wanted to do instead of doing something important.

But you know, on the other hand, there are just some little "stupid" things that you have to do sometimes. And crafting is a hobby for me and being organized is a need for me. So I'm gonna take this as a win.

It's just that I look at my lists and, instead of shrinking, they seem to grow. Every time I cross something off I feel like I add two more things. It's the list equivalent of taking one step forward and two steps back. And to top off the stress I get from these lists, I lie awake at night thinking about money we don't have, being homesick, and wondering when I'm ever going to see my family again (it's been over a year: unacceptable.) This whole adjustment thing for me has been harder than I thought at first. Part of the problem is it is more of an ever present and dull ache than a quick and over pain.

I've been trying to get things in order and I just feel like I'm running all over the place and not getting anything done. I feel so scrambled and my brain is becoming ADD and not allowing me to think about any one thing for a period of time.

Last week at the conference was so good, and I really want to write about that, but I cant pull my thoughts together enough to form words. I really don't handle stress well do I? No, no I don't.

Again for the lack of blogging...

...I apologize. I have blogs I want to write (read: move, crazy movers, this new life I'm living) but time, and lack of internet at home (currently) oh, and unpacking, are hindering me. Soooo....I thought I would write something I've been meaning to write since...January...

Church of the Highlands (my now old church) did a series in January about doing 5 things everyday to achieve your goals. If you interested in hearing more you can view the series here.

So, after many months, and much hemming and hawing, I have FINALLY narrowed mine down:

1. Make time for my Number 1
2. Take care of my temple
3. Be a good steward
4. Keep the romance alive
5. Overcome my inhibitions

I don't know why it was so hard for me to come up with these. I guess a lot of it had to do with the fact that I am 1.) indecisive and 2.) interested in just doing too much. I realized that I was putting things on my list that I already did without thinking and, subsequently, decided I needed to fill it with things I wouldn't do naturally: Things I needed to remind myself to do. And hopefully, the more I do them, the more they will become habits and I wont need a list to remind me to do "my 5."

More for me than anything else, I want to expound a little on each of my five:

1. Number one is all about making time for God: my Number One. I think that making time to read His word and to talk to Him is more important than anything else...and something I struggle with. Sometimes it's hard for me to make God my priority and I take my relationship for granted. I say to myself "God's still going to be there for me even if I do (insert some random task(usually sleep some more)) instead of read my Bible this morning." And that's true, He will still be there for me, but what kind of friend am I being if I don't make any time for Him? And how can I have a healthy relationship with Him if I never talk to him? Ya....exactly. (BTW, I'm not saying I don't talk to God, I do. I'm just saying I haven't made my time with Him enough of a priority lately.)

2.) Number 2 is something that's important to me. It's something I talk about and think about and plan for, and then never do. Taking care of my temple, to me, means a lot of things. It means exercising and watching what I eat and taking my vitamins. I want for my body to be a tool that I can use instead of something that holds me back by being too tired or too unhealthy.

3.) Number 3 encompasses several things. I had tried putting them all on the list until I realized that all these little "things" I wanted to do really were in the same vein of wanting to take care of what I have. Being a good steward, to me, means being frugal with our money. It means taking care of our things and being organized. Organization is something that is important to me and helps me get done the things I need to get done. For some reason, the things on my "5" are all things that are important to me but I never seem to do. I guess that's the point?

4.) Number 4 is all about my Number 2. God is my Number 1, Trey is my Number 2. Trey is the most important person on this planet to me and I know I have a huge responsibility when it comes to our marriage. Especially now that Trey is going to be in full-time ministry, I know that one of my big roles is supporting him. Not that that wasn't one of my roles before, it just seems even more important now for some reason. I want to be the very best wife to Trey that I can be and "Keeping the romance alive" means more than just "romance" if that makes sense. It means romantic things, like keeping it fresh and taking time to spend together, but it also means being there for Trey whatever he needs and being a good "life partner."

5.) When I had the first 4 done I had a lot of trouble coming up with number 5. I thought about lots of different things and I thought about my goals. My goals have changed a lot with this move and new situation and I knew that there were things I was going to need to change. Somewhere in the past few years I have become a totally different person than I was before. A few years ago I was outgoing and uninhibited. And lately, I've noticed that I'm...shy? SHY! What am I supposed to do being shy in a place and role that requires me to meet new people and set an example? So I decided to add it to my list and do something about it. They say practice makes perfect so I'm hoping that by "practicing" I can overcome this roadblock and get it off my list!

So there ya go. Or there I go. Time to get to work. I know I'm a bit late (January to April anyone?) but better late than never right? Exactly.