Ok, apparently when I added this item to my life list I neglected to observe the cardinal rule for writing goals: They have to be measurable.
How, exactly, do you measure whether or not I have achieved the goal of "learning to love heels?" The only basis I have to go on is that I now FEEL that I have accomplished this goal: I wear heels nearly everyday and have been loving doing it. The only issue now is that I feel I MUST add more to my wardrobe. Haha.
So, short post: check, #82: check.
Peace
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Update
Not much has been going on down here in Thomason-land. I kind of feel like everything is just holding its breath until we actually HAVE INTERNS. Ya, that will make a big difference.
The homesickness has subsided, a bit. BUT, we're trying to plan a trip to visit family and I'm not sure if that will make things better or worse. Not that I don't want to go, I just don't know how I'll feel when I get back.
The baby bug has bit me a little again. I'm not really saying much to Trey about it or even doing anything at all. I know the timing isn't great so I'm just waiting. But as soon as he says it's time...I'm there!
The time seems to be going by fast and slow at the same time. Sometimes we get to the weekend and it seems like time has flown so fast.
I have been spending my days in Trey's office, on my computer, just working on stuff for 24/7. I have my own cubical with a computer and everything but I have spent next to no time in there. I'm sure I will move in there eventually but, for now, it is just easier to stay with Trey. And I HAVE been getting a lot of work done so I don't feel too bad about it:).
We love our townhouse. Well, everything but the screaming dryer and the lack of garbage disposal. Still, perspective? we're doing ok. The original plan was to only be in this house for a few months and then look for a new place, as the owner is trying to sell it. BUT, last week she said we could stay there as long as we like. So we still might be moving sometime but at least there is no pressure for a while.
I can't think of much else. That's our short update for now!
The homesickness has subsided, a bit. BUT, we're trying to plan a trip to visit family and I'm not sure if that will make things better or worse. Not that I don't want to go, I just don't know how I'll feel when I get back.
The baby bug has bit me a little again. I'm not really saying much to Trey about it or even doing anything at all. I know the timing isn't great so I'm just waiting. But as soon as he says it's time...I'm there!
The time seems to be going by fast and slow at the same time. Sometimes we get to the weekend and it seems like time has flown so fast.
I have been spending my days in Trey's office, on my computer, just working on stuff for 24/7. I have my own cubical with a computer and everything but I have spent next to no time in there. I'm sure I will move in there eventually but, for now, it is just easier to stay with Trey. And I HAVE been getting a lot of work done so I don't feel too bad about it:).
We love our townhouse. Well, everything but the screaming dryer and the lack of garbage disposal. Still, perspective? we're doing ok. The original plan was to only be in this house for a few months and then look for a new place, as the owner is trying to sell it. BUT, last week she said we could stay there as long as we like. So we still might be moving sometime but at least there is no pressure for a while.
I can't think of much else. That's our short update for now!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Scrambled
It's been a bit of a rough week for me. I'm not sure if I HAVE too much going on, or if I'm making too much for myself to do. Or both. Or neither.
For example: I just got done organizing my craft bookmarks (pretty sure I had like...a thousand). It took forever and it was something I felt like I needed to do. And maybe I did. Or maybe it is just something stupid that I wanted to do instead of doing something important.
But you know, on the other hand, there are just some little "stupid" things that you have to do sometimes. And crafting is a hobby for me and being organized is a need for me. So I'm gonna take this as a win.
It's just that I look at my lists and, instead of shrinking, they seem to grow. Every time I cross something off I feel like I add two more things. It's the list equivalent of taking one step forward and two steps back. And to top off the stress I get from these lists, I lie awake at night thinking about money we don't have, being homesick, and wondering when I'm ever going to see my family again (it's been over a year: unacceptable.) This whole adjustment thing for me has been harder than I thought at first. Part of the problem is it is more of an ever present and dull ache than a quick and over pain.
I've been trying to get things in order and I just feel like I'm running all over the place and not getting anything done. I feel so scrambled and my brain is becoming ADD and not allowing me to think about any one thing for a period of time.
Last week at the conference was so good, and I really want to write about that, but I cant pull my thoughts together enough to form words. I really don't handle stress well do I? No, no I don't.
For example: I just got done organizing my craft bookmarks (pretty sure I had like...a thousand). It took forever and it was something I felt like I needed to do. And maybe I did. Or maybe it is just something stupid that I wanted to do instead of doing something important.
But you know, on the other hand, there are just some little "stupid" things that you have to do sometimes. And crafting is a hobby for me and being organized is a need for me. So I'm gonna take this as a win.
It's just that I look at my lists and, instead of shrinking, they seem to grow. Every time I cross something off I feel like I add two more things. It's the list equivalent of taking one step forward and two steps back. And to top off the stress I get from these lists, I lie awake at night thinking about money we don't have, being homesick, and wondering when I'm ever going to see my family again (it's been over a year: unacceptable.) This whole adjustment thing for me has been harder than I thought at first. Part of the problem is it is more of an ever present and dull ache than a quick and over pain.
I've been trying to get things in order and I just feel like I'm running all over the place and not getting anything done. I feel so scrambled and my brain is becoming ADD and not allowing me to think about any one thing for a period of time.
Last week at the conference was so good, and I really want to write about that, but I cant pull my thoughts together enough to form words. I really don't handle stress well do I? No, no I don't.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Again for the lack of blogging...
...I apologize. I have blogs I want to write (read: move, crazy movers, this new life I'm living) but time, and lack of internet at home (currently) oh, and unpacking, are hindering me. Soooo....I thought I would write something I've been meaning to write since...January...
Church of the Highlands (my now old church) did a series in January about doing 5 things everyday to achieve your goals. If you interested in hearing more you can view the series here.
So, after many months, and much hemming and hawing, I have FINALLY narrowed mine down:
1. Make time for my Number 1
2. Take care of my temple
3. Be a good steward
4. Keep the romance alive
5. Overcome my inhibitions
I don't know why it was so hard for me to come up with these. I guess a lot of it had to do with the fact that I am 1.) indecisive and 2.) interested in just doing too much. I realized that I was putting things on my list that I already did without thinking and, subsequently, decided I needed to fill it with things I wouldn't do naturally: Things I needed to remind myself to do. And hopefully, the more I do them, the more they will become habits and I wont need a list to remind me to do "my 5."
More for me than anything else, I want to expound a little on each of my five:
1. Number one is all about making time for God: my Number One. I think that making time to read His word and to talk to Him is more important than anything else...and something I struggle with. Sometimes it's hard for me to make God my priority and I take my relationship for granted. I say to myself "God's still going to be there for me even if I do (insert some random task(usually sleep some more)) instead of read my Bible this morning." And that's true, He will still be there for me, but what kind of friend am I being if I don't make any time for Him? And how can I have a healthy relationship with Him if I never talk to him? Ya....exactly. (BTW, I'm not saying I don't talk to God, I do. I'm just saying I haven't made my time with Him enough of a priority lately.)
2.) Number 2 is something that's important to me. It's something I talk about and think about and plan for, and then never do. Taking care of my temple, to me, means a lot of things. It means exercising and watching what I eat and taking my vitamins. I want for my body to be a tool that I can use instead of something that holds me back by being too tired or too unhealthy.
3.) Number 3 encompasses several things. I had tried putting them all on the list until I realized that all these little "things" I wanted to do really were in the same vein of wanting to take care of what I have. Being a good steward, to me, means being frugal with our money. It means taking care of our things and being organized. Organization is something that is important to me and helps me get done the things I need to get done. For some reason, the things on my "5" are all things that are important to me but I never seem to do. I guess that's the point?
4.) Number 4 is all about my Number 2. God is my Number 1, Trey is my Number 2. Trey is the most important person on this planet to me and I know I have a huge responsibility when it comes to our marriage. Especially now that Trey is going to be in full-time ministry, I know that one of my big roles is supporting him. Not that that wasn't one of my roles before, it just seems even more important now for some reason. I want to be the very best wife to Trey that I can be and "Keeping the romance alive" means more than just "romance" if that makes sense. It means romantic things, like keeping it fresh and taking time to spend together, but it also means being there for Trey whatever he needs and being a good "life partner."
5.) When I had the first 4 done I had a lot of trouble coming up with number 5. I thought about lots of different things and I thought about my goals. My goals have changed a lot with this move and new situation and I knew that there were things I was going to need to change. Somewhere in the past few years I have become a totally different person than I was before. A few years ago I was outgoing and uninhibited. And lately, I've noticed that I'm...shy? SHY! What am I supposed to do being shy in a place and role that requires me to meet new people and set an example? So I decided to add it to my list and do something about it. They say practice makes perfect so I'm hoping that by "practicing" I can overcome this roadblock and get it off my list!
So there ya go. Or there I go. Time to get to work. I know I'm a bit late (January to April anyone?) but better late than never right? Exactly.
Church of the Highlands (my now old church) did a series in January about doing 5 things everyday to achieve your goals. If you interested in hearing more you can view the series here.
So, after many months, and much hemming and hawing, I have FINALLY narrowed mine down:
1. Make time for my Number 1
2. Take care of my temple
3. Be a good steward
4. Keep the romance alive
5. Overcome my inhibitions
I don't know why it was so hard for me to come up with these. I guess a lot of it had to do with the fact that I am 1.) indecisive and 2.) interested in just doing too much. I realized that I was putting things on my list that I already did without thinking and, subsequently, decided I needed to fill it with things I wouldn't do naturally: Things I needed to remind myself to do. And hopefully, the more I do them, the more they will become habits and I wont need a list to remind me to do "my 5."
More for me than anything else, I want to expound a little on each of my five:
1. Number one is all about making time for God: my Number One. I think that making time to read His word and to talk to Him is more important than anything else...and something I struggle with. Sometimes it's hard for me to make God my priority and I take my relationship for granted. I say to myself "God's still going to be there for me even if I do (insert some random task(usually sleep some more)) instead of read my Bible this morning." And that's true, He will still be there for me, but what kind of friend am I being if I don't make any time for Him? And how can I have a healthy relationship with Him if I never talk to him? Ya....exactly. (BTW, I'm not saying I don't talk to God, I do. I'm just saying I haven't made my time with Him enough of a priority lately.)
2.) Number 2 is something that's important to me. It's something I talk about and think about and plan for, and then never do. Taking care of my temple, to me, means a lot of things. It means exercising and watching what I eat and taking my vitamins. I want for my body to be a tool that I can use instead of something that holds me back by being too tired or too unhealthy.
3.) Number 3 encompasses several things. I had tried putting them all on the list until I realized that all these little "things" I wanted to do really were in the same vein of wanting to take care of what I have. Being a good steward, to me, means being frugal with our money. It means taking care of our things and being organized. Organization is something that is important to me and helps me get done the things I need to get done. For some reason, the things on my "5" are all things that are important to me but I never seem to do. I guess that's the point?
4.) Number 4 is all about my Number 2. God is my Number 1, Trey is my Number 2. Trey is the most important person on this planet to me and I know I have a huge responsibility when it comes to our marriage. Especially now that Trey is going to be in full-time ministry, I know that one of my big roles is supporting him. Not that that wasn't one of my roles before, it just seems even more important now for some reason. I want to be the very best wife to Trey that I can be and "Keeping the romance alive" means more than just "romance" if that makes sense. It means romantic things, like keeping it fresh and taking time to spend together, but it also means being there for Trey whatever he needs and being a good "life partner."
5.) When I had the first 4 done I had a lot of trouble coming up with number 5. I thought about lots of different things and I thought about my goals. My goals have changed a lot with this move and new situation and I knew that there were things I was going to need to change. Somewhere in the past few years I have become a totally different person than I was before. A few years ago I was outgoing and uninhibited. And lately, I've noticed that I'm...shy? SHY! What am I supposed to do being shy in a place and role that requires me to meet new people and set an example? So I decided to add it to my list and do something about it. They say practice makes perfect so I'm hoping that by "practicing" I can overcome this roadblock and get it off my list!
So there ya go. Or there I go. Time to get to work. I know I'm a bit late (January to April anyone?) but better late than never right? Exactly.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
A Cry for Help
Let me tell you...this past week has been fraught with problems. It seems that everything that could go wrong, has:
Our movers have deceived us over and over again and have YET to deliver our stuff. Trey was given a bad check for some work he did which left us in a very bad place, especially considering the move and our trips back and forth to Alabama. I have been sick almost everyday and have had a mouth ulcer that is driving me insane (of course, those last two are probably more a result of the stress but they're not helping). Our house and storage needs to be cleaned out. And I just don't seem to have enough time to get everything that NEEDS to be done, done. Much less the things I had wanted to do.
And on top of those big ones, there have been countless little stresses that are, piled on the foundation of my big stressers, enough to push me over the edge. I'm so much of a mess right now that I feel like I can barely function. Poor Trey has taken the brunt of a lot of my stress.
I feel horrible, I've acted horrible. And those horrible things have left me feeling MORE horrible. It's an endless cycle of horrible that I just want to run to my bed to escape. And then I remember that I don't *have* a bed right now.
I want to cry, but every time I feel the tears someone else walks up to talk to me and I blink them away. I want to scream, but I know it's time for me to act like an adult. I want to stay in bed all day and wish the world would disappear, but there are things that need doing and people that need seeing and I must get up. I want to go away and take a vacation, but we just started a new job. I want my mom, but she's across the country.
Regardless, I have found that I have actually warmed up to North Carolina much more, and much sooner, than I expected. I know that God has a purpose and I DO trust him. I am desperately trying to focus on the things that are going well instead of focusing on the (seemingly countless) things that are going wrong. It's so hard and I just keep telling myself that this has to be satan. And then I tell myself that if satan is attacking this hard, the things we are meant to do in NC must be going to be really awesome.
I cling to the promises that God will provide for us and that he has a purpose and a plan. The doubts and worries seem to come so naturally to me and I'm so exhausted from fighting them off, and suppressing my feelings about the move, and trying to support Trey, and planning for 24/7, and taking care of things from the move (on the side we left as well as the side we're entering), and trying not to let people down, and trying not to fall apart when people seem to keep letting us down and on and on and on. I'm so exhausted, in fact, that I can't hardly sleep. And I have no idea how I'm going to help Trey drive back home tomorrow.
O God, help me! O friends...pray for me. Pray for me and Trey. I know, in my heart of hearts, that everything is going to be ok. I know that God is going to take care of us. And I know that this whole ordeal is something we'll look back on and laugh. Like, the parent's who tell you about their first years of marriage on a shoe-string budget. I hope we can chuckle about this the way they do. I hope that we look into each other's eyes and remember these days with the kind of romantic magic I always feel when older couples share these kinds of stories. I know going through the fire makes you stronger and all I can do is cling to my Jesus.
Believe it or not, I am relieved to not be pregnant or have a baby right now. I know, right?
Our movers have deceived us over and over again and have YET to deliver our stuff. Trey was given a bad check for some work he did which left us in a very bad place, especially considering the move and our trips back and forth to Alabama. I have been sick almost everyday and have had a mouth ulcer that is driving me insane (of course, those last two are probably more a result of the stress but they're not helping). Our house and storage needs to be cleaned out. And I just don't seem to have enough time to get everything that NEEDS to be done, done. Much less the things I had wanted to do.
And on top of those big ones, there have been countless little stresses that are, piled on the foundation of my big stressers, enough to push me over the edge. I'm so much of a mess right now that I feel like I can barely function. Poor Trey has taken the brunt of a lot of my stress.
I feel horrible, I've acted horrible. And those horrible things have left me feeling MORE horrible. It's an endless cycle of horrible that I just want to run to my bed to escape. And then I remember that I don't *have* a bed right now.
I want to cry, but every time I feel the tears someone else walks up to talk to me and I blink them away. I want to scream, but I know it's time for me to act like an adult. I want to stay in bed all day and wish the world would disappear, but there are things that need doing and people that need seeing and I must get up. I want to go away and take a vacation, but we just started a new job. I want my mom, but she's across the country.
Regardless, I have found that I have actually warmed up to North Carolina much more, and much sooner, than I expected. I know that God has a purpose and I DO trust him. I am desperately trying to focus on the things that are going well instead of focusing on the (seemingly countless) things that are going wrong. It's so hard and I just keep telling myself that this has to be satan. And then I tell myself that if satan is attacking this hard, the things we are meant to do in NC must be going to be really awesome.
I cling to the promises that God will provide for us and that he has a purpose and a plan. The doubts and worries seem to come so naturally to me and I'm so exhausted from fighting them off, and suppressing my feelings about the move, and trying to support Trey, and planning for 24/7, and taking care of things from the move (on the side we left as well as the side we're entering), and trying not to let people down, and trying not to fall apart when people seem to keep letting us down and on and on and on. I'm so exhausted, in fact, that I can't hardly sleep. And I have no idea how I'm going to help Trey drive back home tomorrow.
O God, help me! O friends...pray for me. Pray for me and Trey. I know, in my heart of hearts, that everything is going to be ok. I know that God is going to take care of us. And I know that this whole ordeal is something we'll look back on and laugh. Like, the parent's who tell you about their first years of marriage on a shoe-string budget. I hope we can chuckle about this the way they do. I hope that we look into each other's eyes and remember these days with the kind of romantic magic I always feel when older couples share these kinds of stories. I know going through the fire makes you stronger and all I can do is cling to my Jesus.
Believe it or not, I am relieved to not be pregnant or have a baby right now. I know, right?
Thursday, April 8, 2010
quick update
Well...after trials of many kinds...we're here in North Carolina.
I have to say, I'm doing much better than I thought I would be. Though we haven't actually gotten to stay in it yet...I do really like our new place. Now if the dern movers would just get here!
I haven't actually started working yet because the church is giving me some time to get our stuff together, but Trey has been working and I've been here everyday (what else am I going to do?). I am enjoying getting to hang out with him and being in meetings and such.
Ok now people are coming in the office and distracting me so that's all for now. I'll try to start updating more once we get settled and I can settle my brain as well.
I have to say, I'm doing much better than I thought I would be. Though we haven't actually gotten to stay in it yet...I do really like our new place. Now if the dern movers would just get here!
I haven't actually started working yet because the church is giving me some time to get our stuff together, but Trey has been working and I've been here everyday (what else am I going to do?). I am enjoying getting to hang out with him and being in meetings and such.
Ok now people are coming in the office and distracting me so that's all for now. I'll try to start updating more once we get settled and I can settle my brain as well.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Dump
I am exhausted.
I have so much going on in my head right now that I keep having to run and look at my list(s) because I feel like I'm forgetting something. And of course, every time I look at my list I see that I am not forgetting anything...I just have a lot of time-sensitive stuff to do that I can't actually do yet. And it keeps happening over and over again.
I carry a little notebook around with me. Well...actually...I carry: my journal, a planner (that I really just use as a daily "to-do" list, a tiny notebook to write anything I think I need to remember, and my phone with my master schedule, several lists and yet another to-do list. Scary right? And I am constantly pulling out one thing or another and checking to make sure I'm on the right track, or adding things to my lists and what not. I am like a crazy person.
As much as the thought of moving has brought stress into my life, I also feel a sense of relief when I think about it now. I guess I feel like, if we can just get moved, that I can relax. I can settle into a routine and I can form a schedule that doesn't get completely ignored.
I'm looking forward to making my schedule and planning out my days. I know some people can't live that way, but I love it. When life stresses me out, it helps me to plan and to make lists. I guess it's because it is something I can control when my world is out of control.
So it's bittersweet, this moving thing. I still can't decide how I feel.
I have so much going on in my head right now that I keep having to run and look at my list(s) because I feel like I'm forgetting something. And of course, every time I look at my list I see that I am not forgetting anything...I just have a lot of time-sensitive stuff to do that I can't actually do yet. And it keeps happening over and over again.
I carry a little notebook around with me. Well...actually...I carry: my journal, a planner (that I really just use as a daily "to-do" list, a tiny notebook to write anything I think I need to remember, and my phone with my master schedule, several lists and yet another to-do list. Scary right? And I am constantly pulling out one thing or another and checking to make sure I'm on the right track, or adding things to my lists and what not. I am like a crazy person.
As much as the thought of moving has brought stress into my life, I also feel a sense of relief when I think about it now. I guess I feel like, if we can just get moved, that I can relax. I can settle into a routine and I can form a schedule that doesn't get completely ignored.
I'm looking forward to making my schedule and planning out my days. I know some people can't live that way, but I love it. When life stresses me out, it helps me to plan and to make lists. I guess it's because it is something I can control when my world is out of control.
So it's bittersweet, this moving thing. I still can't decide how I feel.
Monday, March 29, 2010
We're moving
...in a week. We're moving in a week. We're moving in a week. No matter how I say it, I can't seem to get it to sink in.
Most of our stuff is packed. There are boxes everywhere and the walls are bare. The apartment looks a lot like it did when we first moved in. Except there are more boxes. I guess we have accumulated some stuff in the past year.
Honestly, I've been packing and thinking about our new place and planning and taking care of business, but I just can't seem to get it in my head that we are actually moving. Though, looking back, I think I've pretty much felt this way about all the moves in my life so maybe this is the normal response. At least, normal for me. If that be the case, I have about 6 days before it hits me and I freak out. Like, when they are loading all my stuff into a truck.
I can't say that I'm not excited. At least a part of me is excited about the whole directing a 247/working with Trey/starting a new chapter in our life thing. The bigger part of me just seems to be in denial. Fun. I know in my head that moving is a normal part of life (well, normal for me) and that everything will be ok and we'll settle into our new lives and we'll get used to it. But my stomach doesn't seem to agree with my head and it keeps reminding me by shifting uneasily. Oh the joy.
Well, I guess it's too late now though. We're moving and that's all there is to it. And it'll be fine. It might even be great. If I can just get past that "Eeep" I know it will all be great.
Most of our stuff is packed. There are boxes everywhere and the walls are bare. The apartment looks a lot like it did when we first moved in. Except there are more boxes. I guess we have accumulated some stuff in the past year.
Honestly, I've been packing and thinking about our new place and planning and taking care of business, but I just can't seem to get it in my head that we are actually moving. Though, looking back, I think I've pretty much felt this way about all the moves in my life so maybe this is the normal response. At least, normal for me. If that be the case, I have about 6 days before it hits me and I freak out. Like, when they are loading all my stuff into a truck.
I can't say that I'm not excited. At least a part of me is excited about the whole directing a 247/working with Trey/starting a new chapter in our life thing. The bigger part of me just seems to be in denial. Fun. I know in my head that moving is a normal part of life (well, normal for me) and that everything will be ok and we'll settle into our new lives and we'll get used to it. But my stomach doesn't seem to agree with my head and it keeps reminding me by shifting uneasily. Oh the joy.
Well, I guess it's too late now though. We're moving and that's all there is to it. And it'll be fine. It might even be great. If I can just get past that "Eeep" I know it will all be great.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Trey Speaks Again
Wanna hear some more Trey-poetry?
We're freakin' awesome,
We live in a tree.
Down down down,
By the big big bee!
We're freakin' awesome,
And we have. to. pee!
I love my life.
We're freakin' awesome,
We live in a tree.
Down down down,
By the big big bee!
We're freakin' awesome,
And we have. to. pee!
I love my life.
#19--Try Sushi
I didn't NOT like it. That's all I really know to say. It was such a different experience than anything I've ever tasted that I can't really compare it to anything.
The pastors of the church that we are going to be working at love sushi so, while having lunch with them, I decided to try a piece--you know, for life list purposes.
I think it is something I'll have to grow into.
Anti-Climactic Update
So, if you don't know, Trey and I are moving.
Over the past several months we have been in talks with a church in North Carolina about moving up there to start a 24/7 internship program. Last week we flew up for a second interview and were offered the job.
Trey will be working full time as the director and I will be working part time as his assistant.
We're excited, nervous and all the other emotions that go with moving and big life changes.
I might not be around the blog much for awhile (o biiiiigg change, right?) because we are moving in 3 weeks (the day after Easter) and I've got a lot to do. I just finished a loose schedule for us over the next few weeks and between all the packing and regular activities and crazy things-that-you-never-think-about, our schedule is full and bursting at the seams.
So...I may not have time to write. I have been journaling and I hope that someday I can look back at all this and think about the "good ol' days."
Until then, please pray for everything to go smoothly for us as we make this big transition.
Love,
Lauren
Over the past several months we have been in talks with a church in North Carolina about moving up there to start a 24/7 internship program. Last week we flew up for a second interview and were offered the job.
Trey will be working full time as the director and I will be working part time as his assistant.
We're excited, nervous and all the other emotions that go with moving and big life changes.
I might not be around the blog much for awhile (o biiiiigg change, right?) because we are moving in 3 weeks (the day after Easter) and I've got a lot to do. I just finished a loose schedule for us over the next few weeks and between all the packing and regular activities and crazy things-that-you-never-think-about, our schedule is full and bursting at the seams.
So...I may not have time to write. I have been journaling and I hope that someday I can look back at all this and think about the "good ol' days."
Until then, please pray for everything to go smoothly for us as we make this big transition.
Love,
Lauren
Monday, March 8, 2010
Bits
Blogging has become increasingly difficult for me. I want to get on here and write, but I have nothing to say. I want to describe everything that is going on in our lives, but I'm waiting until things settle a bit.
Another thing that has led me to blog less, is that I have really picked up journaling again. There are some things you just dont want to post on a blog and some things that just cannot be expressed through type. But, in the interest of my blog not traveling to the wasteland where un-used blogs go to take up internet space, here are a few snippets.
Trey and I are doing fabulous. We went through a rough time with the loss of his job in the fall and money issues were tearing me apart. Money isn't really any better than it was but God has been providing for us so much and we have been making it through. Well, better than just "making it through." I find myself loving Trey more and more everyday, which I had heard of but never understood. I feel like we have recaptured our newlywed feeling even as we approach our one year anniversary (!). We just have so much fun together that I can't imagine being happier right now.
We leave for North Carolina again tomorrow. We are flying this time which should be fun and we are having a rental car--first time for both of us so that is something we are excited about too. We are only staying a very short time and will be back by Thursday evening but we are hoping to get some more clarity during this trip and really be sure about our next step.
One of my favorite things to happen recently was the birth of our niece, Lily. She wasn't expected till the 14th and my SIL, Kassie, was going to be induced this Wednesday (while we were out of town, boo.) However, Lily had other plans and made her entrance in the wee minutes of this past Thursday morning. She is a perfect 6lbs 3 oz, 19 inches long. Some people say all babies are cute. This blanket statement does not always apply to newborns as they often come out, well, looking like little squished aliens. But people? Let me tell you, little Lily has been beautiful since the beginning.
See? And this picture was from her birthday. For now I'm her only aunt so I'm pretty sure that makes me a shoe-in for favorite:D
I can't wait to see her again already. She didn't do wonders for my biological clock, but I think I'm closing in on Trey;)
*thu-thump*
Another thing that has led me to blog less, is that I have really picked up journaling again. There are some things you just dont want to post on a blog and some things that just cannot be expressed through type. But, in the interest of my blog not traveling to the wasteland where un-used blogs go to take up internet space, here are a few snippets.
Trey and I are doing fabulous. We went through a rough time with the loss of his job in the fall and money issues were tearing me apart. Money isn't really any better than it was but God has been providing for us so much and we have been making it through. Well, better than just "making it through." I find myself loving Trey more and more everyday, which I had heard of but never understood. I feel like we have recaptured our newlywed feeling even as we approach our one year anniversary (!). We just have so much fun together that I can't imagine being happier right now.
We leave for North Carolina again tomorrow. We are flying this time which should be fun and we are having a rental car--first time for both of us so that is something we are excited about too. We are only staying a very short time and will be back by Thursday evening but we are hoping to get some more clarity during this trip and really be sure about our next step.
One of my favorite things to happen recently was the birth of our niece, Lily. She wasn't expected till the 14th and my SIL, Kassie, was going to be induced this Wednesday (while we were out of town, boo.) However, Lily had other plans and made her entrance in the wee minutes of this past Thursday morning. She is a perfect 6lbs 3 oz, 19 inches long. Some people say all babies are cute. This blanket statement does not always apply to newborns as they often come out, well, looking like little squished aliens. But people? Let me tell you, little Lily has been beautiful since the beginning.
See? And this picture was from her birthday. For now I'm her only aunt so I'm pretty sure that makes me a shoe-in for favorite:DI can't wait to see her again already. She didn't do wonders for my biological clock, but I think I'm closing in on Trey;)
*thu-thump*
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
#79--Learn to Crochet
Sorry it's been so long. First of all I'd like to say: we're headin' to North Carolina again! Well be leaving the week after next so please keep us in your prayers again.
And now...Trey got me a book for Valentines day to crochet cute little animals. So of course I had to tackle item # 79 so I could start making some. And...I've still got progress to make but here is what I've got so far:
Trey wanted the hedgehog. It came out WAY bigger than I planned so I might try again...
Then I made a Moxie. I actually understood the concept enough this time to modify the pattern--like, a lot--so really I take full credit for this. Haha. I'm pretty proud of here even if she does look a little wonky. And that purse is my very favorite purse ever by the way. I love it. That little tidbit was free.
Moxie just *loves* her look-a-like. Can't you tell?
And now...Trey got me a book for Valentines day to crochet cute little animals. So of course I had to tackle item # 79 so I could start making some. And...I've still got progress to make but here is what I've got so far:
Trey wanted the hedgehog. It came out WAY bigger than I planned so I might try again...
Then I made a Moxie. I actually understood the concept enough this time to modify the pattern--like, a lot--so really I take full credit for this. Haha. I'm pretty proud of here even if she does look a little wonky. And that purse is my very favorite purse ever by the way. I love it. That little tidbit was free.
Moxie just *loves* her look-a-like. Can't you tell?
Monday, February 15, 2010
Insomnia
Last night I couldn't sleep. I don't know if it was the soy chai I had at work or what but I just couldn't sleep, even though I was exhausted from my long day of work.
So I was laying in bed trying not to wake Trey and, as I often do, I started a list on my phone:
I am:
A lover
A fighter
The "cute" one
Funny
A thinker
A planner
A daydreamer
Sentimental
A minimalist
Organized
A lover of lists
A poet
Easily adaptable
Always changing
A cat owner
A Christian
Adopted
A wife (!)
A daughter
A blogger
A wannabe foodie
A creator
A child
A woman
A sister
A worrier
Responsible
Concerned with health and fitness
Soft clay
Willing to change
An ex-emotional girl
Frugal
And so many other things, but in the interest of me doing something but try to think of things I am all day, just the list I wrote last night will suffice.
Coincidentally, today in the book I'm reading, it was talking about us, as women, trying to find our identity amidst all the hats we sometimes wear. And I'm like, "Self, was I identity-searching last night?" We may never know.
Anyway, that's my tidbit for the day.
So I was laying in bed trying not to wake Trey and, as I often do, I started a list on my phone:
I am:
A lover
A fighter
The "cute" one
Funny
A thinker
A planner
A daydreamer
Sentimental
A minimalist
Organized
A lover of lists
A poet
Easily adaptable
Always changing
A cat owner
A Christian
Adopted
A wife (!)
A daughter
A blogger
A wannabe foodie
A creator
A child
A woman
A sister
A worrier
Responsible
Concerned with health and fitness
Soft clay
Willing to change
An ex-emotional girl
Frugal
And so many other things, but in the interest of me doing something but try to think of things I am all day, just the list I wrote last night will suffice.
Coincidentally, today in the book I'm reading, it was talking about us, as women, trying to find our identity amidst all the hats we sometimes wear. And I'm like, "Self, was I identity-searching last night?" We may never know.
Anyway, that's my tidbit for the day.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Bathroom
I am exhausted. I think I'm still recovering from our trip, but I also took on an internet project that is really taking it out of me. More on that when I finish it...like in a year. Just kidding, it will be sooner than that, haha.
Anyway, I just wanted to stop by and say that this:
Cant remember where I found this...
is the most fabulous bathroom I have ever seen. I want.
Anyway, I just wanted to stop by and say that this:
Cant remember where I found this...
is the most fabulous bathroom I have ever seen. I want.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Not a-poem-a-day February
Obviously this has NOT been poem-a-day February. I had started out well but crumbled when our days got so hectic all I wanted to do in my (limited) free-time was sleep.
We just got back (and I mean JUST) from a week long trip to North Carolina this morning. In fact, Trey dropped me off at work on our way back home and I've been here since. So I haven't even been home yet.
It was a long week but a good one. We had traveled up there to meet with some people at a church in Raleigh and it was just totally a God week. Even if nothing comes of it I think it was just totally orchestrated by God to speak some things into our life. I definitely had a good time but I can hear my bed calling me from here. We drove six hours to Atlanta last night, arrived there at one a.m. and then got up at 5:30 and drove the rest of the way here. So ya, long night. I believe Trey is at home taking a nap right now and I am totally jealous. If you're looking for me after 5 tonight I will be dead to the world. Sorry.
I can't wait to share more about what God is doing in our life right now but I think it must wait a little longer. I learned my lesson before in counting my eggs before they have hatched and I don't plan on doing that now.
To all our friends and family who know our situation and have been praying for us: thank you! We have really been trusting God and trying not to take any steps before He gives the go ahead so we'll see what He says!
Love,
Lauren
We just got back (and I mean JUST) from a week long trip to North Carolina this morning. In fact, Trey dropped me off at work on our way back home and I've been here since. So I haven't even been home yet.
It was a long week but a good one. We had traveled up there to meet with some people at a church in Raleigh and it was just totally a God week. Even if nothing comes of it I think it was just totally orchestrated by God to speak some things into our life. I definitely had a good time but I can hear my bed calling me from here. We drove six hours to Atlanta last night, arrived there at one a.m. and then got up at 5:30 and drove the rest of the way here. So ya, long night. I believe Trey is at home taking a nap right now and I am totally jealous. If you're looking for me after 5 tonight I will be dead to the world. Sorry.
I can't wait to share more about what God is doing in our life right now but I think it must wait a little longer. I learned my lesson before in counting my eggs before they have hatched and I don't plan on doing that now.
To all our friends and family who know our situation and have been praying for us: thank you! We have really been trusting God and trying not to take any steps before He gives the go ahead so we'll see what He says!
Love,
Lauren
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
February Poem, Day 2
I cannot go to school today
I cannot go to school.
My teachers are all mad at me,
I've broken all the rules.
I've broken all the sticks of chalk,
I wrote on all the desks.
I pulled all of the girls hair,
And all the cubbies, wrecked.
I didn't come in from recess time,
I started a food fight at lunch.
I hid under my desk in math,
Gave the bunny pencils to munch.
I put a frog in the teacher's desk,
I fed my homework to the dog.
I led the class in a silly song,
And ran from the principle at a jog.
So I cannot go to school today
There is a problem, you see?
'Cuz I wreaked havoc on everyone else,
Today they'll wanna wreak havoc on me!
I cannot go to school.
My teachers are all mad at me,
I've broken all the rules.
I've broken all the sticks of chalk,
I wrote on all the desks.
I pulled all of the girls hair,
And all the cubbies, wrecked.
I didn't come in from recess time,
I started a food fight at lunch.
I hid under my desk in math,
Gave the bunny pencils to munch.
I put a frog in the teacher's desk,
I fed my homework to the dog.
I led the class in a silly song,
And ran from the principle at a jog.
So I cannot go to school today
There is a problem, you see?
'Cuz I wreaked havoc on everyone else,
Today they'll wanna wreak havoc on me!
I'm staring to think I should have stuck with Twitter. I stopped using it a couple of months ago and haven't had the heart to pick it back up. BUT, the past few days I've had a lot of little blurbs that I have wanted to release into the world somewhere, somehow. Changing my Facebook status every time a new thought pops into my head doesn't seem polite and, like I said, I just don't want to go back to Twitter! I don't know why. Maybe I should. I probably should. O sheesh, I probably should. Anyway, until such a time as I rejoin the masses in their 140 character bursts of word vomit (or spouts of wisdom. Who are YOU following?), here are my thoughts for today:
What is it with people and cups of ice?
I think I like soy chai.
Yes I'm a fan of the soy chai.
Thank God for soy chai or this "no milk" thing would be hard in the cafe.
*Can you tell I'm at the cafe?*
All-staff meetings scare me.
I am FA-REAKING out about this interview.
What should I wear?!
What if I forget to pack something?
My ear is plugged again.
But my booty still hurts from that shot at the dr so I don't wanna go back. I DON'T WAAAANNNA!
Oooo...just found out staff meeting means I get free lunch.
Suddenly I'm n0t so scared of the staff meeting.
I spilled coffee EVERYWHERE. Shouldn't have left the spigot open while brewing a new pot. Gah!
I wonder when Trey will be here?
First years make me smile.
There are just too many good blogs out there.
Will my blog every be a good blog?
I really need to come up with some better material.
Because this? This is lame.
And yet? I feel then need to post several times a day lately.
Like I have something to SAY.
Bwahahahaha.
I hope I make it through Poem-a-Day February.
I hope I make it through this interview process.
I hope I don't choke.
I hope it still works out that I can get pregnant this year.
Wiggidy-wack is like the best word ever.
Yes, we are now at that place.
I am glad I talked to Shelia today.
I am glad I don't work there anymore.
I have got to work on my wardrobe.
I seriously love to people watch.
If Trey doesn't get paid today, well %(*@&W&(81 GAH!
O gosh! I just remembered I actually have some stuff I need to work on! Oops.
I wonder if I'll have time to work out tonight?
Because last night was awesome.
AWEsome.
It is not fair that baby clothes are so cute.
Or that every time I turn around someone is either pregnant or carrying a baby.
I'm not really an "other people's babies"-person but I can't wait to have my own.
Is that normal?
I love that I can feel my hair on the back of my arms now.
Almost to my goal!
Ok that's enough.
I need to stop now.
Stooooppp tyyypiiinnnggg.
Dooo soooommmeethhhinnngg prooodduuucttiiivvvee...
Seriously stop.
Stop.
Dangit fingers! I said stop.
STOP!
Wow that was slightly retarded and highly unnecessary. I'm going to go rejoin the real world now. And by that I mean that I am going to...ummm...type something else. And I just realized the last three sentences could have been typed just like the ones above: standing alone. And now I'm wondering if all sentences should just be written as stand alone, Twitter-esque, sentenses from now on. And while I was wondering that my brain imploded and now all I can do is sit here glassy-eyed. I'm sorry.
I'm going to sign of now.
Now.
What is it with people and cups of ice?
I think I like soy chai.
Yes I'm a fan of the soy chai.
Thank God for soy chai or this "no milk" thing would be hard in the cafe.
*Can you tell I'm at the cafe?*
All-staff meetings scare me.
I am FA-REAKING out about this interview.
What should I wear?!
What if I forget to pack something?
My ear is plugged again.
But my booty still hurts from that shot at the dr so I don't wanna go back. I DON'T WAAAANNNA!
Oooo...just found out staff meeting means I get free lunch.
Suddenly I'm n0t so scared of the staff meeting.
I spilled coffee EVERYWHERE. Shouldn't have left the spigot open while brewing a new pot. Gah!
I wonder when Trey will be here?
First years make me smile.
There are just too many good blogs out there.
Will my blog every be a good blog?
I really need to come up with some better material.
Because this? This is lame.
And yet? I feel then need to post several times a day lately.
Like I have something to SAY.
Bwahahahaha.
I hope I make it through Poem-a-Day February.
I hope I make it through this interview process.
I hope I don't choke.
I hope it still works out that I can get pregnant this year.
Wiggidy-wack is like the best word ever.
Yes, we are now at that place.
I am glad I talked to Shelia today.
I am glad I don't work there anymore.
I have got to work on my wardrobe.
I seriously love to people watch.
If Trey doesn't get paid today, well %(*@&W&(81 GAH!
O gosh! I just remembered I actually have some stuff I need to work on! Oops.
I wonder if I'll have time to work out tonight?
Because last night was awesome.
AWEsome.
It is not fair that baby clothes are so cute.
Or that every time I turn around someone is either pregnant or carrying a baby.
I'm not really an "other people's babies"-person but I can't wait to have my own.
Is that normal?
I love that I can feel my hair on the back of my arms now.
Almost to my goal!
Ok that's enough.
I need to stop now.
Stooooppp tyyypiiinnnggg.
Dooo soooommmeethhhinnngg prooodduuucttiiivvvee...
Seriously stop.
Stop.
Dangit fingers! I said stop.
STOP!
Wow that was slightly retarded and highly unnecessary. I'm going to go rejoin the real world now. And by that I mean that I am going to...ummm...type something else. And I just realized the last three sentences could have been typed just like the ones above: standing alone. And now I'm wondering if all sentences should just be written as stand alone, Twitter-esque, sentenses from now on. And while I was wondering that my brain imploded and now all I can do is sit here glassy-eyed. I'm sorry.
I'm going to sign of now.
Now.
Milk
I have a milk allergy.
I'm not lactose intolerant, I just have what they call a "milk sensitivity." And it seems to keep getting more "sensitive" with each passing year. See, I can drink milk and such but it can make me feel sick, or just gross or random other negative things like that. So this year I decided to try and stay away from milk, not avoid it entirely, but just try to choose more non-milk options.
The biggest problem I've come across so far is working in the cafe. Most of our drinks (actually, make that all the ones I love) are made with milk. So that has been hard to give up. We have soy but let me tell you, it changes the taste of the whole drink. And I don't love it. There, I said it. So...the only thing I have been drinking the past few days is soy chai. I love chai and it is strong enough to totally hide the taste of the soy. Actually, I barely put any soy in there at all--just enough to cut the spice of the chai. And it's been going well. I hope I don't get sick of it because then I'm going to have to be creative.
I just really feel like the negative effects milk was having on me were getting to be a little much. So, bye for now milk! I'm hoping that I'll see big improvements on the way I feel.
Oh and btw, I'm only 5 pounds from the lowest weight I ever was: pre-wedding haha. So I'm hoping that contunues to drop off lol.
Chao.
I'm not lactose intolerant, I just have what they call a "milk sensitivity." And it seems to keep getting more "sensitive" with each passing year. See, I can drink milk and such but it can make me feel sick, or just gross or random other negative things like that. So this year I decided to try and stay away from milk, not avoid it entirely, but just try to choose more non-milk options.
The biggest problem I've come across so far is working in the cafe. Most of our drinks (actually, make that all the ones I love) are made with milk. So that has been hard to give up. We have soy but let me tell you, it changes the taste of the whole drink. And I don't love it. There, I said it. So...the only thing I have been drinking the past few days is soy chai. I love chai and it is strong enough to totally hide the taste of the soy. Actually, I barely put any soy in there at all--just enough to cut the spice of the chai. And it's been going well. I hope I don't get sick of it because then I'm going to have to be creative.
I just really feel like the negative effects milk was having on me were getting to be a little much. So, bye for now milk! I'm hoping that I'll see big improvements on the way I feel.
Oh and btw, I'm only 5 pounds from the lowest weight I ever was: pre-wedding haha. So I'm hoping that contunues to drop off lol.
Chao.
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